There Is No Remedy For Love But To Love More.

– Henry David Thoreau

Day 3: Your first love

Oh dear I’m almost afraid to post this… I can talk about most things that I have said or done, but this one always makes me cringe. Most people who’ve known me while growing up already know who this was and how it went, but for the rest of you out there… my first love was this kid, in the picture, wearing the white shirt, with the long hair:

From Left to right: Me, Donald, Annie, Mark, and Tracy

Mark Montgomery

Why this guy? Honestly, I couldn’t tell ya. He was a mean little thing when others were around, but when it was just him and I? He’d be so sweet. My first date was with Mark, Annie, and Joel to see 007: Tomorrow Never Dies… if you can call it a date. I was 12. My mom dropped us off and picked us up. Can you see why this story is cringe worthy?

Anyways, as time went on we were together and then not, and then were. It seemed like every time I was over it and trying to move on he’d drag my ass right back to him. He used to tease me every single morning at the bus stop before school, one day I got mad and shook up and soda and hucked it at his feet, and I swear if looks could kill he’d have stabbed me one hundred times over.

But this is the same boy who’d take walks in the rain, who would sit and talk for hours about the harder things he faced, who came to me when he needed help and stood up for me when I needed him to. This is also the same boy who disappointed me time and again and who would pretend I wasn’t around until he needed something from me. The same boy who’d write me love letters and draw pictures of cartoon characters for me, and the same boy who made me cry over and over.

I wonder if Annie remembers the summer he suddenly grew up, geez he grew into a handsome man.

I saw Mark again after I’d gotten married, after Hayden was born. Mark asked me why I hadn’t stuck around, why hadn’t I stayed with him. I’m fairly convinced he was drunk or stoned or both, but he asked it. I found myself feeling badly for him, and telling him I waited years, but he was far too late then. He asked me to stay with him, to not go home. I nearly laughed at the thought but realized he was serious. I’ll always have a soft spot for Mark, him being my first love and all, but there’s no way I’m gonna walk back into that disaster.

It’s been a few more years since then. I hear he found a lady he is quite fond of, and together, they have a beautiful little girl. While I’ll always wonder about him and even care for him if I saw him, I’d certainly be his friend, but I’d bet its safe to say I got over that drama a long time ago, and I’m glad he’s found himself a good place in life.

I’d agree that first loves last forever, but maybe not quite as love. I’ll never forget Mark, or how it felt at that young young age to be head over heels for him, but if I saw him today, I know it wouldn’t be the same.

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Spider Wing Cleared

I’ve been slacking on the posting. Been having some RL medical stuff come up and I’ve been extremely distracted by it. However, recently I got to see a REAL rogue and the kind of damage it can do, I leveled engineering up to 422, I fished my heart out for some coins and got the Silver in the City achievement, and I picked up my very last recipe from Dalaran, leaving me 14 short of my 160. There’s the tidbits, now on to the good stuff.

wowscrnshot_010609_184430As I mentioned, my group of server hopping guild searching refugees friends recently found a home in the guild Damage Control. Things have been awesome, and all in all I don’t think we’ve ever been so widely accepted before. Everyone seems to be happy and that leaves me a lot more time to worry about myself. Yesterday, was regular raid day for the guild. They’d been doing 1 group for 10 man Naxx. Last night, thanks to the addition of two uber awesome healers, (ahem) we were able to get two off the ground. Group 2, my group, had about half a raid full of nooblets, including myself, to Naxx, but that didn’t stop us. With only one wipe on the last boss in the Spider Wing, we managed to clear them all with EASE even, and started down the plague wing before calling it a night. Tonight the guild has Heroic OS, lets hope we can get him totally on our own.

A Meme

I’ve been tagged by that lovable hunter over at Dechion’s Place… The meme, originally started by One Among Many simply asks:

Go back to your first few posts. Who was the first person to EVER comment on your blog? Call them out, link that post and thank them! Then tag a few folks to see who they call out.

Well….. 

Dechion Commented first, followed by Asara, and Larisa all on my post… An Introduction, of Sorts.

They all wished me good luck and welcomed me to the blogosphere! I started out not knowing where I wanted to take this blog… and I still really don’t know, but I’m having fun anyways stumbling my way around and ranting about whatever comes in front of me. However, this blog is here to stay. Merry Christmas everyone…. oh and I don’t tag anyone… this meme has been around for a while now.

A Call To Arms

I think I mentioned breifly that I retired from leading guilds and settled into Alliance territory in a guild called Ale and Arms. This guild so far has been a good match for myself and my husband. They have two teams that run at different times, an Evening Team and a Late Night Team. Seeing as I live in Alaska and this is an Eastern Standard Time Server, the Late Night works out well for me. However its not just me here. When I decided to depart from my long time love, my Warlock, and the Horde, I brought along 7 good friends I’d made along the way, including Dechion.

When I first applied us to our guild, the times seemed great for all involved. Dechion, Kheldorn, Phoshizzle and Dayzie could all make the Evening times, and Myself, Zerehemnah (the husband), Frozenblack, Hucksluck and Holymama could all make the Late Night. Even though this split us, it offered opportunites to the group to see content they hadn’t before.

Well, at least, so I thought.

Seems to be that nothing has gone according to plan. Dayzie has left our server to return to her horde character. Dechion and Phoshizzle have not recieved many (if any) opportunites to raid with the guild, and Phoshizzle is about to deploy for a month. Kheldorn has been tied up with school but overall is not thrilled with the leadership here. As for Late Night, Hucksluck and Holymama only recently reached 70 so have not yet begun thier adventure into any content. Frozenblack, myself and Zerehemnah are the only ones who have actively raided with our new guild.

But of course, in a guild there is always something dramra-ific going on. For one reason or another despite successes in raiding, quite a few Late Night members have stopped showing up, or left guild, and one even transferred off the server. So we are back at square one again. We’ve been asked to step up, and help out. We are actively recruiting but are not very optomistic that we will find many to join our ranks at such a late hour.

So, that leads me to wonder what I should do for my friends and I. Currently I aim to hang out, as I am not a fan of guild hopping. However I do not wish to remain here if the others are not content. All in all im not sure anymore what the best route for us will be. So cross your fingers for us that all turns out well in the end.