Everything Happens to Everybody Sooner or Later if There is Time Enough

-George Bernard Shaw

More than a year has gone by since I opened my mouth last… perhaps that’s a good thing. Rather than apologize, I saw a quote while looking up ideas on how to write about the passage of time and came across this little bit of pleasure…

Sometimes I need what only you can provide: your absence

It made me think that apologizing to the internet for not having time for it is rather silly, since odds are, no one noticed I wasn’t writing. As depressing as that thought might seem, it doesn’t bother me. I don’t write here for any other person’s pleasure, just my own. It’s a nice little journal of sorts that I am willing to share, and if someone is willing to read, all the better.

So I’ll try to recap the last year as briefly as possible… mostly so I can remember to write about these events later.

  • We spent Christmas last year in Bremerton with family, for the first time in 10 years.
  • In January I promised myself to be healthier… and I promise I tried… for about a week.
  • In February I got a job at Burger King… In April I quit. Don’t work there. Just don’t.
  • April brought Lillie’s 6th birthday.
  • In late April I started working for The Home Depot. Do work there. I still do.
  • In June Hayden turned 10. Double digits earned him a trip to a water park. Turns out I don’t care for water slides… or find I feel too fat for them. See January.
  • Also in June I joined a gym. That lasted a month due to cost… but I lost weight.
  • In July my mom found out she had cancer. I spent a week or so in the hospital with her.
  • In August I decided the weight had to go. Between August and November I lost like 30 lbs.
  • In September both kids were in full time school. I wish they’d quit getting older, cause that means I am too.
  • In October I turned 29, Mom turned 59, Dustin turned 38, Molly turned 19, and I had my 11th wedding anniversary. I also worked too much, and didn’t celebrate much, but I did get an awesome 3DSXL and Animal Crossing for a present!
  • For my anniversary, though, I went to a Navy League Ball. It was fancy… and boring. But I got to wear an expensive dress.
  • For Halloween, Hayden was a Creeper, and Lillie was the Pink Power Ranger. Also, Bill visited.
  • November 6th was Garen’s birthday. He’s still old. (33)
  • On November 11th I arrived at Harrison Hospital at 3:30 in the morning, for my mother.
  • On November 13th I got to talk to her for the last time.
  • On November 16th, she passed away. (Also Garen’s late mother Charlet’s birthday)
  • On November 22nd, my sister in law Gina was being a sneak and got eloped. (CONGRATS!)
  • Tonight I redid the blog, merged in older posts, and got ready to try writing again.

I make no promises to commit to writing, because I never seem to follow through. But I’ve got the bug, because my hubby got the bug… and well, anything he can do I can do better! (Not really, he’s got a knack for words).

I’ll try to expand upon these things in the next few days… but there’s the short version.




Everyone Thinks of Changing the World, But No One Thinks of Changing Himself

-Leo Tolstoy

Today is day 1.

Today is the day I am supposed to begin the change to be better. A better mother, a better wife, a better member of society. I’ve picked two areas to focus on; weight loss and smoking. Doing these two things hand in hand might seem crazy, but it made sense to me to replace my bad habit (smoking) with a good one (exercise). I don’t expect perfection. I don’t even expect fast results, but I do expect to start somewhere, and that somewhere for me is here. So here’s my starting point information.

I was smoking about 1.5 packs a day.

I weighed in at 257 pounds this morning. 55 gained from my big loss a couple years back. That’s almost all of it.

Quitting smoking isn’t easy by any means, but my method is. The method I have chosen is cold turkey. I have support in my husband Garen who is also quitting cold turkey. I might slip up, I might not. If I do, I’ll just continue on as if I hadn’t slipped.

Weight loss will be done in steps. With the holidays right around the corner I don’t want to push myself to go on a huge diet. I know this will lead to failure on my part, and then discouragement. I am skipping any major dieting until after the holidays. Instead, I want to build a routine of going to the gym.

With my health problem of having large ovarian cysts, I aimed for strength training as opposed to cardio. Building muscle helps burn fat, they say. I did some looking around and decided that my local Curves was my best option. They have a circuit, support, and motivation that I would need in order to be successful in having a workout routine.

I will start with getting used to working out, add the diet in later, and quit smoking all at the same time. Is it a lot to do? Yes. But I’m holding myself accountable by writing about it. I will have setbacks, I will have success, and I will share it here. 257 lbs to start, 150lbs goal. That’s 107 lbs to lose. And a whole lot of smoking as well. Wish me luck!